Tuesday, January 23, 2007
sigh. emo post so beware.
when you've made a choice and its too late to regret, what do you do?
bury your head under your pillow and cry?
it doesnt work coz you'll just do the same thing every night and can never get out of it.
in the morning you'd just wake up with puffy eyes and everybody will think you're some huge cry baby.
cry to other pple? i think that works the best. just that that person can never really understand how you feel and cant do much to help you except listen. which is good enough i guess.
i try to fill my life up with alot of meaningful things.
like working at the kindergarten, playing with kids... what i've always loved.
even though i kinda know i wanna be an accountant and so working with kids is not gonna be helpful at all, i still go to work.
sigh. since the day he left, its the only time of the day i actually laugh, like when brandon does something stupid but still looks so incredibly cute when doing it.
i really donno what to do... i want to give up on this but i just cant.
its only the beginning and i have a long way to go and already im really tired...
tired of trying so hard to get back whats in the past, tired of trying to occupy my mind with other pple.
going out with friends only to find that i can only be my real self around him.
i really donno what to do...
im trying so hard and im just so tired...
Posted by [dreams]* at 6:42 PM