Sunday, May 21, 2006
baby's sad and so am i :(
somehow there's more reason to be sad on sun than sat...
i wonder why.
maybe cos sun starts off super early when my dad nags at me to wake up and go to church.
its not that i dislike going to church, but my church has become damn sian to me..
it shouldn't be this way cos i grew up in this church, but i donno why...
i'm just not growing. and i need a new environment and esp a better time!!!!!!!!
:(
so i grudgingly went to church with my family.. and my sis and i wanted to sneak off after the service.
but my youthleader was standing behind us and after the service he cornered me
him: hey! haven't seen you around for so long? how are you?
me: *mumbles* umm.. busyy..
him: oh! busy arh..
at that point i wanted to just run away from him k.. cos he was so believing even though i was so obviously lying.
he: can you guys come for youth later?
and i agreed without hesitation..
shitt.. why can't i ever learn to say no?!
anyway i went afterall, cos i didn't want to break my promise to someone i respect :)
and now my sunday's been made worse cos baby said he wants to leave home.
i understand why he wants to leave... but i'm really really worried abt him..
i know how it feels like to be insecure in your own home and continually blamed for every teeny weeny bit of wrong you do.
not that i face it as much as him tho :(
poor baby..
sunday sucks.
Posted by [dreams]* at 2:46 PM