Wednesday, September 14, 2005
meant to blog ytd but was too tired after a whole day of emotional unstability.
i've decided to carry on with this relationship and let it slowly fade off..
although i don't see it happening anytime soon.
oh well, maybe after he goes to ns...
i've become numb to the reality of being with someone whom i know i won't have a happy ending with.
the sadness of not being able to introduce him to my family.
and the guilt of going against my mom and my religion.
like elgin said, maybe i'm at the stage where i need physical/emotional affection, and i've been mistaking it as love.
i don't really care actually, i'm just taking things one step at a time, and go as far as i can in this relationship.
:)
i know i'm taking the easy way out, pampering my heart instead of being strong for what i know/believe in.
do i sound like i have things sorted out? :P
thanks sam, clarence and elgin for being there when i needed advice the most :)
Posted by [dreams]* at 11:29 AM